i want to break into your heart to see why you want us apart.

Mon, 13 Nov 2006 02:17:14 GMT

i have a boyfriend, tony, and he is the best ever♥

Tue, 30 Nov 2004 23:17:54 GMT

omgggg today was suuuch a great day!! first, i see steve numerous times. it was cute cause him and like 5 guys were coming at me and yet he stillllll stopped and said hi and almost hugged me but then i dropped something so yea. cause ya know, when guys are around their friends they act like they don't know you lol. then i saw him again and he waved to me. but i didn't get my hug!! grr oh well. then, mike and i are all flirty and shit and he told me i had nice lips haha. thennnn i see brent and oyy i love him! and like amanda had my camera all day and we were taking pictures of everyone. she told me to stand with this really tall kid and i'm like, ok i don't even know who he is. haha so he put his arm around me and wow he's tall lol. cute too. and yeaaa we deff. got pictures of joe who's like the hottest sophomore i've ever seen in my life, woop. i was supposed to meet up with ANOTHER mike who is beautiful. he's a senior. oyy, gorgeous. but i felt like a moron going into the weight room not in sweats, so i texted him instead cause he gave me his number last night. he texted me back at 4 when ariella was driving me home, i felt bad. =( but he saw me! and he's all like, lookin good lookin good. and that shit. then he's like, we should go on a date. ;) and im like, aw yea! and he thought i was being sarcastic so he's all like, no im serious! and yea it was cuteeee. and then he sent me the most ADORABLE one everrrrrr!! it said this; "U gotta find me! I know i saw u and u took my breath away when i looked at u. My heart skipped a beat and i got that tingly feeling" *cue the awww's* oyy man, so adorable. now i'm just praying that he means it and it wasn't bullshit of one of his gayass friends haha. soo we've been texting. he said he'll talk to me later. woop woop. now i'm here, bored, and i wanna do something but i'm too tired. i was supposed to go to the Nets game tonight but lauren's not going and i dunno anyone else who is so i just said fuck it. the end ♥

ohh, and here's some pictures for your viewing pleasure ♥

and my slut crew...

jess, steve, me, amanda, kate.

Tue, 30 Nov 2004 02:51:32 GMT

oyy today was molto molto fun. i swear to god, mike was freakin stoned. or something. cause he was deffinitely WAY out of it. he was all like touching me and shit. damn it was weird. but i mean, hey, i can't complain lol. once again, we were gonna go 'do something' but didn't. so then afterwards, i find amanda. then we find jessica and a bunch of girls and one guy playing spin the bottle in a hallway haha. then we found steve!! someone called me from molly's phone and started bitching. it was mad gay. so steve called back and pretended to be all man whore-ish. and kyle got on the phone. and amanda. and jessica. and wow. to put it in simplest terms... amanda, jessica, kate, steve, and me have named oursleves the "slut crew" haha yupp.the picture is on my myspace. so go look & comment. =) and like i deffinitely have a huge crush on steve. amanda hurt his back so i was rubbing it for a while. then after he was done bitching at the chick on the phone, im like, 'steve, i love you' and hugged him n kissed him. then after everyone else left, it was me and him for like 10 minutes. when his mom came and picked him up, i'm like, 'where's my hug?' so he gave me a hug & i'm like, 'yea you NEVER hug me!' so he gave me the most amazing hug i've ever gotten from a boy then i'm like, i expect one everyday from now on at lunch. ;) hehe so i get a hug every day now. and yea we have the same lunch and shit. 5th period, represent. anyways, i got home and i was starving so i ate then talked to people and fell asleep and woke up like not even an hour go just to watch a show and then go back to sleep lol. the end. ♥

Mon, 29 Nov 2004 04:31:27 GMT

ok so last night from like 1:30ish til exactly 6:14, i was on and off the phone with jesse. <3 more on than off, though. yea, him and his friend adam were playing halo 2 and i was on the phone helping them cause i fuckin own at that game. =)

today he woke me up at like 12:30ish and then around 3 we hung out. me, him, and adam. we were gonna see the incredibles cause the two of us have been dying to see it, but instead we went to red robin and ate and talked to people. adam took a picture of jesse and i on his phone, aww. then we drove back over to the commons. walked around. went into barnes & noble. adam waited outside and jesse and i went in and he used the toilet then we looked at sex books haha. man, i had a good time today. he drove me home around 5 and kissed me in his car and it was all cute. =) ♥

oh!! and we listened to "fasciatami cantare"!! haha it's this WICKED awesome italian techno song that i know by heart and know it's translation so i sang it and he was all impressed, woopwoop! he has his ipod hooked up to his car, which was so cool. annnd we also listened to 'satisfaction', greenday, and yellowcard. oyy, he's my new best friend ♥

Sun, 28 Nov 2004 06:35:11 GMT

wow so much to update about. i'd read the whole thing if i were you ;)

soo thursday night i was on the phone with jesse for a while. he's simply amazing. <3 then i woke up at 9 on friday, took a shower, and went into the city with my aunt carol, alaina, dana, robin, bethany, and mackenzie [sp]. SO much fun! we walked all over the place. on madison avenue we went into all the really expensive places. and we ate in a chinese resturaunt. thennnn went into more shops. then went into the trump tower and fell asleep on a table with dana and bethany while aunti c, mackenzie, robin and alaina played uno. then at like 5 we met up with alyssa, bill, and my aunt's friend ian. aw man, alyssa & bill are so cute together. i hope they get married. =) anyways, we walk around deciding what to do. went to madame tussaud's wax museum but only went in the lobby. they have wax statues of julia roberts (pregnant), donald trump, george bush, jlo, madonna, and someone else idk. they looked SO real! so then we go to eat at o'flahertys which is an irish pub on resturaunt row. it was good, yumm. then alyssa and bill leave and go to a martini bar so the rest of us drive down to chinatown / little italy. i LOVE those two places! yea so in c-town we go into one of those stores with knock off bags and the dude gives us this address to a place that has designer brands. one word = SCARY!! we so i bought a prada bookbag for 35 bucks. it's cute. bethany got a shitload of louis vuitton stuff. then we went home. and i go to sleep around 1 then jesse calls then neil calls then jesse calls then i call jesse back. aw man, i love those two boys. neil was so drunk, it was cute.

today i woke up at 11 then me, my mom, and my sister met up with aunt carol, robin, bethany, mackenzie, and ian at some diner. it was cool. then we went to the disney store!!!!! ahhhh i wanna work there!! it was so amazingggg! i felt like a kid in a candy shop lol. my mom bought me this tinkerbell snowglobe for christmas cause i'm OBSESSED with tinkerbell and my sister was so adorable. she got so much haha. yea then my mom drove us down to macy*s and her and my sister left. wow that store is huge. NINE floors! i bought a real cute XOXO bag, lancome juicy tubes lip gloss (miracle.. it's amazing.. my 3rd one lol), magenta MAC lip liner that im using as eyeliner, and a chai tea latte from starbucks lol. then met up with my aunts other friend patti. then we went to jeckkle & hyde club to eat. not the one midtown, the other one. (i went to the midtown one last year on a class trip haha). omg it was soo much fun!! one of the guys was hitting on my aunt haha. so we left and drove to the empire state building and went up to the 86th floor. someone jumped off that yesterday at like 10:20 am and landed on the 5th floor. HAHA! i love new york. yea so that was amazing. i bought adrienne a post card and i'm mailing it to her even though she's lives like around the corner. i promised her i'd bring her something home from nyc lol

annnd i've been on the phone with jesse on and off all day. we were gonna hang out tonight but idk when my dad's coming home from work and yea, i'd have to sneak out of the house and all. so we're gonna hang out tomorrow. i'm so happy. =) this weekend was SO amazing! badabababa... i'm lovin it ♥

Thu, 25 Nov 2004 22:31:15 GMT

what an amazing night and morning!! =) so last night i stayed at a hotel like 10 minutes away from me haha. talked to jesse<3 for some time before they made me go to bed so we could get up at like 6. so we get up, i did my hair, and we were off. went into new york city for the parade, woo! it was amazing. we were on the 7th foor of some building on broadway and 40th and i was stancing in the window haha.

anyways, i started this entry at 2:36 and it's not 5:27. moving on...

i saw ryan cabrera, gavin degraw, joe nameth, and tons of other people who ALL waved to me! i think i actually have a picture of degraw waving.. amazing! oh, and santa waved to me too! haha i can't wait till christmas. it was soo much fun. next year i'm gonna hold a string to the spongebob balloon. =)

then we went across the street and got amazing pizza. then walked down to times square and went into sephora and now i smell like 70 different perfumes. but they're so prettyyyy. so we came home and i got to sit in the trunk! hells yea! and neil called and we're gonna make a blonde baby somehow. it's funny cause i'm nowhere's near blonde and he's black. so that process of making a blonde baby will be interesting.

so i got home, watched some football as everyone got to my house, and fell asleep. then woke up and ate. and now i'm here.we're celebrating my cousins alaina & dana's birthdays. alaina was 16 on the 22nd and dana is 18 today. soo happy birthday!!

tonight i think i'm staying at another hotel. then we're going back into the city tomorrow. amazing <3

Wed, 24 Nov 2004 18:44:26 GMT

i just made myself throw up. i'm not really sure why. i think after last night, i needed some healing. hopefully this won't be a constant thing.

anyways, last night jesse [from livingston] called me but i missed the call but when i went to get my phone to call him, it was 11:26 and he called at 11:23 so it wasn't that bad. so we were talking for over an hour. he's amazing. we're so different, yet we have no much in common. i love it. he made me smile. =) & laugh cause he was beating up his brother. fun stuff. vinny also replied to the message i sent him:

haha its ok yea idk ur a cool person but i feel liike an ass nd yea my friends are assholes too

...not really sure what's going on his mind but i'm not gonna be the one to talk to him. if he wants to continue a friendship with me, then he can be my guest. but i'm not gonna chase after him. it sucks, cause i really did like him alot too. whatever.

no school today, whaaaaaaaat. so i slept till 11:30 when my nanny [grandma.. not a nanny like on the show haha] woke me up cause she was going to get my brother from school and i had to watch my sister. yea now i'm bored. brent just IMed me. i love him mucho!!

tonight i'm staying at a hotel with my aunt and a bunch of other people and we're going to the Macy*s thanksgiving day parade tomorrow in the city. woohoo!! i'm excited, i've never gone before. so i probably won't have another update till tomorrow. Happy Turkey Day!

Wed, 24 Nov 2004 03:39:35 GMT

wow. everything that could have went wrong tonight... went wrong tonight. i'm so upset. i wanna cry.

so adrienne and i get to the theater and vinny and his people weren't there yet so we walked over to barnes & noble for the hell of it. then he called and was like, where are you.. blah blah. so i tell him and he starts walking over and adrienne and i start walking back then like we're passing them and i'm just standing there and finally he realizes it's me and wow. i barely got a hello, no hug, and we said like 4 words to eachother in the whole 15 minutes we were together. i really have no idea, maybe he was just trying to be cool in front of his friends. whatever. so his friends were leaving and literally i start screaming, i'm just like, "JUST GO!" so he did and adrienne and i walked ALL THE WAY from the AMC theater back to bloomfield. it was harsh. i can't even explain. whatever, tonight sucks. i sent vinny a messgae on myspace though that said this:

i'm sorry. i don't even think i have to be, but i am. you probably hate me but that's ok cause i hate myself too.

maybe it was just the wrong time and place. i dunno. i'm rambling. deal with it. or maybe i just wasn't what you thought i was. i just felt bad cause you've been asking to hang out for a while now and this was like the only thing i could think of. i would have had you come over or something but my parents are weird when i'm with guys.

i doubt you'll reply to this or ever talk to me again but whatever. it was nice while it lasted. or something. but if you do actually reply n talk to me and wanna 'start over' then why not.

i can't believe i'm still talking. yea, k bye.

it says he read it. he didn't reply. FUCK HIM, AND FUCK BOYS! i can't wait till jake comes home from florida <3

Tue, 23 Nov 2004 21:56:54 GMT

omg last night was amazing. i was talking to vinny on and off for like 10 hours and only got like 3 and a half hours of sleep but it's all good lol. i love that boy.

today was fun. domenic is my bestest friend & jason is growing on me. yea i started out hating him cause he said i had fake hair, but he gave me the biggestttt hug today and yea. mike also gave me a huge hug & kiss. i felt the love. we were gonna go 'do something' but i kinda turned him down cause i'm an idiot and i don't know why. yea oh well. then i was with amanda and sara and alot of other people for a while.

tonight i'm going to the movies with vinny!!!!!!!!! <333 yay! & two of his friends and adrienne & molly. we're seeing the seed of chuckie. i don't plan on watching the movie though. wink. haha kidding. kinda. not really. anyways, i'm so exciting to finally hang out with him. him & his friends might pink me up & i might meet adrienne & molly there but i dunno yet. hm yea another update later on what should be a wwwooonnndddeeeerrrrful night hehe <33

Mon, 22 Nov 2004 23:00:00 GMT

domenic and i are completely insane. we were being asses all afternoon. it was so much fun. i love him. i came home and talked to vinny. he asked if i wanted to hang out tonight and i said yea. but my parents are fucking gay... i'm basically not allowed to have guys over my house. and i hate how i had to tell him that. it's fucking embarassing. they still treat me as if i'm 11 years old. so anyways, i took a nap and he woke me up at 5. =) what a sweetie, i love him. i was soo half asleep so after we hung up, adrienne called, then i called vin back and i'm like, what on earth was i talking about? lol so yea. i figured i'd go to the mall or something and he could meet me there. then he called me just like 5 minutes ago [sweet!!!<3] but then he seemed uneasy when i told him i might go to the mall. i was TRYING to hint something cause then i'm like, you should come. but i dunno. this is why i can NEVER be in a serious relationship with anyone! my parents aren't ready to accept the fact that i'm NOT a child anymore and i'm gonna have boyfriends in the future WHO WILL WANT TO COME OVER ON OCCASSION. granted, i haven't even told them about vinny yet, but that's besides the point haha. oyy i'm really beginning to like him. alot. so of course since we're interesting in eachothe, we won't be anything more than friends. we'll make out a few times. then we won't talk after that. yea cool. whatever.

tomorrow i'm supposed to be going to the nets game but apparently they're in denver? ugh i have no idea. i'm so confused. and in a really bad mood. i wanna see vin!!!! ughhhhhh!! I HATE LIKING BOYS!! ='( i need a comment.

oh yea, it's my cousin alaina's sweet 16 today. and this hottie chris's birthday but i have no idea how old he is haha. happy birthday!!!

Mon, 22 Nov 2004 00:00:41 GMT

so here's the continuation of last night. when adrienne got back, she was talking to random people on my screen name. then jon called and he was really drunk. i was hoping he'd stop over, but he didn't. oh well. i thought vinny was gonna come over too for a while but that didn't happen cause he was so drunk he didn't even know where he was haha. gotta love how everyone gets drunk on weekends but me, right? whatever, i'm better off staying sober. anyways, adrienne and i watched the rest of the breakfast club then just took stupid random pictures. my god, i friggin peed my pants. literally. we're so crazy. thennnn i dunno, i totally passed out around 5 am or something. got woken up a little before 11 cause of my parents. made a huge breakfast. french toast, eggs, and sausage haha. it was good. goofed off some more. i took a shower. ariella called and asked if i wanted to go see a movie with her, her boyfriend jeff, and his friend. then vinny called and asked if i wanted to hang out. he said he'd call me after work. and he did. i just got off the phone with him a few minutes ago. we were talking for like an hour and he's just amazing. but because my parents [& school] are gay, i'm apparently not hanging out with him tonight. blahh gay. i really want to. i'm gonna make him come to the mall with me one day this week. =) yupp <33

Sun, 21 Nov 2004 05:04:24 GMT

aw man today was fun. besides the fact that i felt like death, it was fun. adrienne and i didn't know what to do. then we decided to go to the mall. first we get out eyebrows waxed. then we went to (ghetto) willowbrook. it was like a fuckin myspace.com reunion, i swear lol. i don't know him personally, but i've heard of him from other people, but i saw this dude asian rich with someone else, then i'm in delia's and i see this girl, i'm like wait i know you from somewhere. once again, from myspace. then adrienne and i go into bloomingdale's later on cause i'm like, "hm, samir works here." so we go up to the 3rd floor, first i see his girlfriend, then we go sit on some couches cause we're bored and there were some cute guys around there, then i see this dude walk by and i'm like, wait i think that's samir. so it was. so we were talking for a while. i don't think he recognized me at first haha. but yea, good times. i haven't talked to him in sooo long. and haven't seen him since september lol. so yea, besides the point. i bought new shoelaces in hot topic and put them on these shoes i have with these other pink laces and they look hot! annnd bought 14 dollar MAC eyeliner in bloomie's, but it was totally worth it. thennn in the car ride home we took lots of pictures. we're such fags. so yea, we get back to my house. eat food. oh yea, some dude at the mall invited me to a party hahaha. yea i didn't go obviously. anyways, we're in my room taking more pictures. she tied me to my bed with scarves. funnyyyy ass pictures! now i'm making her watch the breakfast club but she left to get some shit at home buuut she'll be back in like 10 minutes so it's all good. vinny and i might hang out later. i really hope we do. i wuv him <3

ohh and now i'm talking to jake and he's simply amazing. oh man, in love <33

Sat, 20 Nov 2004 03:14:06 GMT

SO IT'S FRIDAY NIGHT AND I'M BORED AND AT HOME FOR SOME ODD REASON AND ADRIENNE TOLD ME TO WRITE POETRY. HERE'S WHAT I CAME UP WITH... read, it's funny.

i am bored.
adrienne is being a snord.
she is pretty gay.
she will die in a stack of hay.
in less than a week.
i don't know the meaning of meek.
actually, adge is gay.
i love her.
she messed up in life.
she's a big dike. she is weird.
she is very smeared.
i don't think this makes sense.
adge should jump over a fence.
but get stuck on a notch.
and then hurt her crotch.
she sleeps at 10 on friday nights.
one day i will challenge her to a fight.
then kick her ass.
i hope she steps on glass.
then goes to the ER.
b/c she is large.
not really though.
but that rhymes yo!
next page.
my best friend is adge.
i need a life.
while adge sucks at her own life.
so does laura.
cause she is a big whore-a.
back to my hot lips.
she doesn't like to suck dicks.
she likes punani.
what is a tsunami?
adrienne should die.
but that's a big lie.
cause i love her.
cause she doesn't have fur.
actually, i don't know.
she plays in the snow.
i think?
she stinks.
but i love my bob.
she is a great big snob.
cause she's from montclair.
oh, excuse me, UPPER montclair.
she doesn't play a snair.
she has weave in her hair.
walter says he don't want no weavy girl.
maybe cause adge makes him hurl.
this is page five.
adge should go find a bee hive.
and get stung.
cause she is HeAdSpRuNgGgGg...
and she is stupid.
she probably hates cupid.
and will stab the poor kid with its own arrow.
even though she's not a pharaoh.
cause they're from ancient egypt.
adrienne is a big pip.
she is kinda almost really hot.
then again, maybe not.
but i heart her to death.
even though she is a [insert insulting word that rhymes with death].
this is the beginning of page six.
i don't think anything rhymes with six.
cause adrienne sucks.
she doesn't feed the ducks.
at the park.
in the dark.
cause she is dumb.
and a bum.
who goes to MSD.
but liked the butt of Mr D.
but i liked it more.
even though adge is still the whore.
-- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- --
i should probably end this now.
keep in mind, adge is not a sow.
this is the top of page seven.
adge will not go to heaven
but she is my best friend.
so fuck you, it's us till the end.
...........BiATCH!!!!!

and this would be me and my lovely adrienne!

yea, i'm fuckin talented, i know. leave a comment or something, tell me what you think.. lmao! <3

Fri, 19 Nov 2004 23:29:50 GMT

"who flung poo" ...that's all i have to say. hehe don't ask! jason was making fun of asian people and that's what he came up with. yea, he's hilarious.

today was soo fun!! mikey-bo-bikey fell asleep on me, awww lol. so i started throwing paper balls at him then domenic came over singing 'headsprung' like a retard and started shaking mike's head so he woke up. then i went to mike's football game with ariella and saw lots of other people. oh man, PC killed don bosco, who was undefeated all season ANDDD like one o the best in the country. yes, amazing! it was his last game of the season too. cute <3 then i go in the school and he came out of the locker room so i'm like, woowoo! haha yea, hes so fuckin hott. soo yea now i'm home and i might go to the play 'twelfth night' at pc to see ariella and brent. but i need someone to go with me. ehh who knows. that's it <3

Fri, 19 Nov 2004 02:55:21 GMT

i hate the problem i have with guys. i like them ALOT when i talk to them. i dunno. i like being around steve. i like talking to jake. i LOVE talking to vin. i have a thing for this guy james cause he reminds me soo much of this guy i know and i just feel like i've known him forever. oh well. i wanna hang out with vin this weekend. oh, and did they take 'life as we know it' off the air?!?! AHHH!! it's been like 2 weeks! grrr..

pictures. yea, cool.

i got like 12 more, i'll save them for tomorrow or something cause i don't feel like copy & pasting haha.

Thu, 18 Nov 2004 20:02:46 GMT

wow i really like vin. like, alot. alot alot. AAAALLLLLOOOOOTTTTTTT!!! yea k we're hanging out this weekend <3

oh, and i almost got my ass kicked (along with lauren's, pat's, and eddie's asses as well) by like 6 or 7 black chicks today. quite scary, if i do say so myself. oyy. i'll have a real update later. possibly with pictures. =)

i need a comment on myspace. someone should leave me one. or two. or ALOT! =D <33

Wed, 17 Nov 2004 20:31:19 GMT

i'm sick. i was coughing half the night. vin sent me some text messages that made me feel better, though. =) he's sick too. so it'd be the perfect time for us to make out. haha kidding. anyways, today i go see mike. we fall asleep together. i wake up for a hot second and notce dom on the other side is also sleeping. so we had one big sleeping orgy. oyy he's so cute when he sleeps. actually, they both are haha. i think that's it.

leave me a comment. i want one. or leave one on my myspace if i've added you.

i think i'm gonna post pictures later, woot woot!

Tue, 16 Nov 2004 22:49:40 GMT

oh man, this hot guy jesse apparently saw me today. and damn, my hair looked cute too, woo!

haha anyways, i really don't remember anything that went out today. it probably wasn't important. mike was sick, i wanted to hug him. wait no i didn't. grr i hate him but i don't. i don't know. whatever. domenic is seriously the most funniest kid alive, and if i could explain it to you some how, trust me, i would. hilarious. oh, and i found out his birthday is june 29th, which is 3 days after mine. cool. =) and um.. oh i saw brent and he's like, 'heyy! lookin good, lookin good" or something like that. i was like awww. steve didn't say hi to me which made me sad. =( ehh oh well, i'll see him enough. cav is also adorable. i wuv him. i got lots of hugs and kisses, it was nice. umm i think that's it. i might go to the mall tonight. even though i'm broke. I NEED A JOBBBB. ehh k the end.

Mon, 15 Nov 2004 23:04:36 GMT

if my parents tell me one more time that what i put in my mouth is 'fattening' i'm gonna slap them. i might as well just STOP eating in general. see, normally, i don't eat. not on purpose, but i'm never hungry. then i go through a period where i actually DO eat. i dunno, i'm weird. yesterday, i woke up and made breakfast for molly and me. then like 3 hours later after she leaves, i had.. i don't remember.. and my parents are all like "you're been eating all day, you're gonna gain so much weight" NO I FUCKIN HAVEN'T!! assholes! way to make me feel good about myself. then my brother was in the kitchen with them and they said something about gainging weight and my brother's like, "yea like amanda." i'm like, shut the fuck up you obese asshole. now tonight, i just finished dinner and i made chocolate milk to drink and my mom's like, "chocolate milk?" and i'm like "yea...?" shes like "its fattening" im like ABJKDNKLNGFJKHBGJKFN I DON'T CARE BITCH!!!! my god!!!!!!!!! it's parents like MINE who's children end up with eating disorders!!! and yea, i've already had one. i was bulimic for two fuckin years, and i'm so close to doing it again. next time they tell me 'im eating too much' or 'thats fattening' im gonna shove my finger down my throat and vomit on them. jeez.

and to think that i had a good day. way to ruin it. whatever, who cares i had a good day. yea, most of you who actually READ this are probably like "well all your days are good" that's true... but if you knew me all last year and the year before that, i rarely EVER had a good day and i was NEVER happy. so now i'm finally happy with life and with myself. gotta love how my parents can ruin it. i wanna cry.

Sun, 14 Nov 2004 18:19:55 GMT

i think this entry is worth reading. actually, it is. read it.

yesterday i looked adorable. my outfit was HOTTTT and so was my hair, but i think i wrote about that in the previous entry. anyways, i called molly and we hung out at her house for a while. we took a walk to the park (yes, in my SKIRT) in the freezing cold. and talked. then we went back to her house for a while, i met her little sister's boyfriend and his mom haha, then we went and got dinner. then got dunkin donuts but they fucked up my latte so we went to starbucks and i got a chai tea latte. wow amore<3 thennnn we walked to her house, i put on pants finally haha. and we were home alone for a while. then walked to my house. there was a box of matches sitting on her kitchen counter so i took them. and she took a big roll of paper towels. so we started walking then at the corner of her street we make a small bonfires with the paper towels. it was cool. then again at the next corner. and at the next. and then like 4 times in the park. it was so cool! i have pictures so eventually i'll post them. anyways, we get to my street and we were gonna light the one paper towel we had left but then a cop drove by haha. anyways, we get to my house, we're bored, we go sit outside like dumbasses and talk and take pictures and light matches cause we're psycho's. or pyro's. same thing. and it was fun. we go back inside to my room and just chill there. then she starts calling people in my phonebook. then vin called me. i wanted to see him last night, but he had already gone home. then she called jon. haha it was great, i dunno if anyone remembers, but it was him and jayb who kidnapped me and drove to molly's and jumped on her trampoline so she called jon and was like "hi this molly, i'm amanda's friend, the one with the trampoline" and he's like "OHHH WADDUP GIRL!!!" haha it was funny. soo umm he came over. a little after 2. we couldn't find our shoes so we kinda just ran out without them lol. it was FREEZING! like 34 degrees! yea, we're nuts. so we were talkin for a while. freezing. molly sits on the curb. jon and i start hooking up. fun fun fun. i go sit in his car cause i was like catching hypothermia. being in car didn't help though. we start making out again. then molly said she saw someone in my brother's window. so we go back inside and jon leaves around like 3 something. we're sitting on my kitchen counters cause i stuck my feet under hot running water in the sink lmao. and we're talking about boys & shit. and realized how much fun our summer was, even though we both said it sucked. i was with that girl more than 2/3's of the summer. it was crazy. so yea, i realized i can't have conversations like the one we had last night with anyone but her. thennnn we finally go to sleep around 430 cause i couldn't keep my eyes open any longer. woke up, she went home around 1145-ish. i have so much shit to do today, plus go christmas / birthday shopping for my cousins. and of course i'm gonna shop for myself hehe. so um yea, the end.

Sat, 13 Nov 2004 16:03:26 GMT

last night i uploaded a bunch of pictures to my webshots.

http://community.webshots.com/user/eat_my_sh0rts

i could not believe how friggin tired i was. but i guess after waking up at 530 am, going to TWO malls (yes it wears you out haha), excitement over a blackout, and not having my nap in the afternoon, really screwed me up. so around like 930ish i called molly. we talked for like a half hour. then she went to sleep. and i was gonna go to sleep but i didn't so i called adrienne and talked to her till like 1130ish.

i didn't wanna go to sleep then either cause my outfit was so damn cute. i looked adorable. i had a white headband in my hair with my 'fake bangs' down and a pink flower on the side. annnd i had on this pink baby tee that says 'tickled' on it and a pink skirt with the brown and pink billabong hoodie i bought last night. oh, and a brown and pink scarf. gahh, adorable!

oh, when i was in sephora yesterday at the first mall, of course i spray everything possible on myself. and i finally decided that i want the tommy girl one with beyonce on the box. i forgot what it's called, but that's the one. soo i think mi madre's gonna get it for me for christmas. if not, i wouldn't mind if any of you guys did. =) hehe kidding.

so then this morning i was gonna go to mike and peter's football game with ariella. so i woke up early and then i called her and i'm like, ya know what? i hate mike right now so i'm not gonna go. HAHA yeahhhh! i've been promising i'd go for weeks now and thursday i was like, i'm deffinitely coming on saturday. hahaha sucker. guess who aint going? wOo! i love being me.

i'm gonna go find something to do. i'll update again later. look at my pictures.

Sat, 13 Nov 2004 02:29:54 GMT

omg today was soo fun and soo gay at the same time haha. mike was EXTREMELY gay today. at first he was ok then he turned psycho man bitch on me. he was freaking out over something i didn't even do. and he was just being a straight up asshole. so i officially give up on him. domenic looked ADORABLE!! he got in so much trouble with the nun, it was hilarious. omg i looove him. i can't even explain how much he made me laugh today. then because of mike i was just in a bad mood for the rest of the day. i took a buss over to garden state plaza with jessica, amanda, and this girl i didn't know but she's so sweet and has a great style. anyways, we went to a bunch of different places. i bought a billabong hoodie and pink and green flowers for my hair at pacsun. then my dad picked me up and around.. 6ish? maybe a little after.. WE HAD A BLACKOUT!!! haha so i called adrienne and she had one too! lol it was so cool. my sister was so scared, it was so cute. hah so yea, when my mom got home from work we went out to dinner. yea, i HATE going out with my family but i was too scared to stay home. i had amazing lasagna, yummy. then we went to the mall. haha GHETTObrook mall this time. i bought blue and white flowers for my hair this time, a scarf, and roxy shoelaces. oh, and eminem's new cd, HOLLA!! he's amazing, i love him. go buy encore! soo then my brother threw a hissy fit cause he's a woman and we came home. now i'm here and i have power again obviously haha. the end.

oh i forgot to mention... remember wayyy back in my entries i talkde about meeting a guy named dennis in pacsun? (black guy) well tonight as i was coming out of pacsun, these two guys (some kind of bob marley type dudes haha) stopped me and one's like, "haven't i seen you around montclair state university?" and i'm like "no i don't think so, i go to paramus catholic" and he's like "ohh paramus catholic college? they have a college?" haha i'm like, "no high school" and simply for the fact that i DIDN'T want to have ANYTHING to do with him, i said i was a sophomore hahaha. i'm such a whore, i know, i know. k nowww the end. =)

Thu, 11 Nov 2004 23:12:42 GMT

aw i got so much love on my last entry. hehe keep it up ;)

anywayssss, today was another good day, woohoo! umm i went to my elementary to talk about PC with mr. kasey, chris, and caitlin. CHRIS IS HOTTTT!! yummy. he's so nice. but he has a girlfriend, grrr. oh well. thennnn come back and i'm with my michael. yummy. he declared me his hoe and he's my pimp. yupp. and we're gonna bang out this weekend. hahahaha. k ya know how like every guy is obsessed with "your mom"? well yea he kept talkin about "your mom" (meaning mine) today. sickening. haha then dom, being the ADD poster boy he is, mike goes to him "isn't amanda's mom a MILF?" and dom's like, "i've never seen her mom" HAHA!! it was great!! i love my domenic! umm then i found out lauren and pat are officially together. soo cute. i saw steve and said hey to him. i <3 him. then i was talking with cav for a good 20 minutes. he's probably the sweetest guy ever. and he's got such a cute face. his eyes and teeth and everything. so cute. yea so i had a huuuge ass migraine and he felt bad. then he left and i was hanging with lauren and pat. i love them. then i came home and slept. omg, life as we know it at 9!!! HOLLA!! haha k the end.

Wed, 10 Nov 2004 20:13:13 GMT

today was such a love-filled day.

i like a new boy. that boy would be vin. <3333

lauren got with rolando yesterday afternoon.

now she likes pat and is gonna go out with him.

amanda likes cav and cav likes amanda.

mike told me he loves me like 40 billion times today.

jay loves the nun. (he passed her class)

dom was playing music the two of us both love.

michele and i love eachother, hahaha.

i have a 100 average in italian. amore <33

and i saw steve and talked to him for a while.

i kinda got a thing for steve, too.

TE AMO! <3333

aww such a good day <3

oh yea, it's my ex 'boyfriend' rod's birthday.

he's 17. i hate him.

Tue, 09 Nov 2004 20:05:21 GMT

last night i was swinging my camera around and wacked my nose with it and it hurts like abitch now lol! i'm such a ditz sometimes. oh, and you can refer to adrienne and i as hotlips and sweetcheeks from now on. k yea don't ask. umm this morning i woke up adrienne and vin. haha i have a list of people to wake up now, it's great. vin is such a hottie. so is adrienne. hahahaha. k anywayssss. uhh.. saw mike. kiss kiss kiss. hung out with him and dom. then cav and lindsay and katherine. then saw brent for like 23 seconds. umm cav is so cool. dom is adorable, omg. him and i get into soo much trouble together. it's so funny. we sing brand new & the used songs together. he started singing that old simple plan song and i was like oh lord. then he started singin the new one and i was like, oh lord one worse than the other. haha it was funny. he's so funny. and so cute. OHH i also had lunch with laurin and pat today. it was mucho fun. oyy my nose hurts so bad. oh well. so yea, later on mike was being completely gay and acting like i wasn't there. then i saw him kiss some ugly chick. GRRRR! why am i so mad? i don't know. we're not together, so i have no reason to be mad. but i am. cause i want that boy.. alotttt. ughh oh well. my nose is killing me and it's itchy so i keep moving it around and it hurts even more. maybe i broke it. gahh, it hurts. i need love <3

edit: nothing is worse than retards like this faggot LAURA ruining good songs. k, ya know 'tiger lilly' by matchbook romance? well, the part that's like "why does tonight have to end? why don't we hit restart, and pause it at our favorite parts. we'll skip the goodbyes" was on my away message and i guess she saw it and didn't wanna make it seem like she was copying me (we have a history with that.. that stupid whore) or she was just too stupid to know it was SONG (a good one, too) and changed it. it now says on her profile, "can we hit rewind? and just pause at our favorite parts?" what a friggin dildo. she's one of those chicks who thinks she's all "cool" because she wears black nail polish (which she got from a teeny bopper movie, no less) and because she pretends to like some of the bands eddie and i like. haha fuckin HOMO. i hate her. she's getting tormented at her school and everyone hates her, woo! i'm so happy. =D

of course i IM her with this...
so sick of cryin: um, that's a song. a good one. but you trashed it. poser.

yea, i love me.